one step at a time

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Took much needed time off today.

It was one of the few days, whereby reflections and reminiscence takes place.

Beg to differ,

Yes, I'm only eighteen.

Enduring tough times, studies and soccer ain't helping me neither.

Is it tough to put just a real smile on my face now?

and i thought(wishful thinking) after June 7,

it will always be plaster there.

and how long can you hang on to the word?

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I'm still walking,

each night and day i yearn for that answer.

i gave it my all, never regretted.

one smile melts all.

tears flow, heart beats rushes.

and times when everything seems so low,

picking up from scratch

maybe too hard to handle.

thoughts of letting it go all seem to real.

one night for you, countless night for me.

Friday, October 30, 2009

just trying very very hard to hold on.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

what a bummer.

school starting in like 1days time.

i haven't had enough,

i wish i could just enjoy more of my holidays with those i love.

sitting alone on a Saturday night sums up the holidays,

rightfully i can't ask for more.

i have everything.

just that, i don't usually treasure upon sight,

leaving to regret later,

that i truly have something to work on.

pictures from Subcomm Retreat.

had a good fun time there, to chill out to get out from everything that is happening.

they are all fun people to hang out with.

my new bunch of friends.

im so gonna start studying this semester.

wasted a long one and half years,

wasting my poly life away.

regretted.

how i wish i could go back to sem1.1

where i would have buck up on my studies.

its kinda late to realise.

relieve me of all the worrying.

cause i really really miss one year ago.

where you are still as sweet as ever.

Friday, October 16, 2009

what makes everyone happy daily?

Without the feeling of hurting, worrying and all?

ASC chalet was a blast with 4days and 3nites of non-stop madness and highness. The feeling of not thinking about anything was so great. Just able to enjoy the laughter together with new friends makes it fabulous enough.

The mahjong and Xbox 360 keeps us all alive throughout the nite, the talking, the lepaking, the cycling to macs was enjoyable. It happen all too fast, from monday to friday, the last week of the holidays, js passes by. Quite sad, but yeah i hope more of this will come, but i dont think it would so often!

school starting, back to studying, mom's coming back next week! life's gonna go for a change once again!

till then.

Friday, October 09, 2009

Don't speak
I can't believe, this is here happening
Our situation isn't right
Get real, who you playing with
I never thought you'd be like this
You were supposed to be there by my side

When you say that you want me
I just don't believe it
You're always ready to give up and never turn around

But what if I need you baby
Would you even try to save me
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true
What if I said I loved you
Would you be the one to run to
Or would you watch me walk away without a fight

I'm so sick of worrying that you're gonna quit over anything
I can trip and you let go like that
And everything that we ever were
It seems to fade, but not the hurt
'Cause you don't know the good things from the bad

When I say that I want you
You know that I mean it
And in my hour of weakness
There's still time to try

But what if I need you baby
Would you even try to save me
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true
What if I said I loved you
Would you be the one to run to
Or would you watch me walk away without a fight

Everytime I speak you try and stop me
'Cause every little thing I say is wrong
You say you're noticing, but you'll never see
This is who I really am but you can't relate
Makes me wanna know right now if it's me you'll live with out
Or would you change your mind?

What if I need you

But what if I need you baby
Would you even try to save me
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true
What if I said I loved you
Would you be the one to run to
Or would you watch me walk away without a...

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

no matter how i hard i try to like you,

no matter how i hard i try to forget you,

my efforts are so fruitless that i get angered by it.